5/30/08

makes my heart all gooey


Tonight Tommy and I went to eat with my parents. Before we got our food, my brother and his family came to join us. At one point Clara was standing on the bench by me. She reached out and put her little arms around my neck. She patted me on the back and didn't let go. As she pulled away I'm pretty sure I heard "luzyou". Even if she didn't say it I know that she was trying to tell me that she loves me. Right back at ya kiddo. This is one proud auntie!


Side note. I had the pleasure of watching her for several hours on Monday. Tommy and I had a great time playing with her and taking her to see the neighbor's ducks. She went home quacking. ha. That night she was at my parents and just as they were leaving she fell and hit her head against the china hutch. I guess it looked pretty bad so they took her to the ER. They debated if they should stitch it but ended up just using the glue. I'm sure this will be the first of many bumps and bruises, but it still looks so sad to see a 1 year old with a gash on her forehead covered with tape. I guess that was a rather long side note...

5/23/08

pomp and circumstance

(Amy, Casey, Amanda, Me)

Tonight is graduation night in my town. My mom and I are going to see my brother's girlfriend walk across the stage. It is hard to believe that it was 10 years ago that I was in the same position, getting ready to head out into the big scary "adult" world. Oh, how things have changed. I had a great group of friends in High School. We always had a great time and never really did much of anything. We just had fun being together. Only a few of my HS friends live near me now and I miss them dearly. Our lives have taken us across several states. I hope to see some of them this year at our reunion. There are a few others that were in the year ahead of me. I don't know when I will see them again. For tonight I'll try to hold back the tears as the HS band plays "pomp and circumstance". For some reason I always tear up when I hear it. Congratulations to all you grads out there, HS or otherwise!

5/15/08

baby bird


A few days ago, Tommy and I discovered a baby robin in our yard. I was worried one of the neighborhood cats would get it, but so far so good. When the rain finally broke this evening I decided to try to get a few pictures of it. Right when I walked out the door I saw momma flying down to tend to her baby. When I got closer I realized the poor thing was all wet. I felt like I should try to dry him off. I suppose that his momma is taking care of him and he will be alright as soon as he can fly. I'm just glad that she is staying by his side, rain or shine. Isn't that how we all should be? No matter what the weather is like, we need to stay by the ones we love, caring for them. Funny how nature can give us subtle reminders.

5/12/08

2 years later


Tomorrow, Tommy and I will celebrate 2 years as a married couple. To me it seems like we have been married longer than that. It is somewhat difficult to remember what life was like without him in it. I guess that is a good thing, right? I thought I would take this opportunity to tell "our" story.


My now sister-in-law, Mindi, is actually responsible for us meeting. She and a friend used to go country line dancing at a place called Wild Country about 45 minutes from us. One weekend they met the Moxey twins there. They soon became friends and looked forward to meeting up with them when they went there on the weekends. I can remember Mindi talking about the Moxey twins and wondering why she was spending so much time with guys that were not my brother, ha. I am not really sure how long they knew one another before I met them, but I'm guessing at least 2 years. Tommy even came up here a few times to visit them. In May of 2004 a group of us went to Wild Country to celebrate Mindi's 21st birthday. I didn't really know if I wanted to go or not since I did not know how to line dance and bars were not my thing at all. Good thing I did. I remember when we picked up Mindi on the way down she made some comment about how her friend Tommy was going to meet us there and he would probably "hit" on me. I just laughed. I asked how old he was and she said that he was the same age as them (meaning 3 years younger). We all met up at Applebee's to eat. Tommy was there and we ended up sitting at the table across from one another. He was unlike any guy I had ever dated or even been friends with. He was wearing cowboy boots, a cowboy hat and tight jeans. His eyes drew me in right away. I have always been an eye girl. Throughout supper I kept catching myself staring at him. I thought that this guy is going to think I'm some sort of freak!



After supper, we headed to Wild Country. We found a few seats by the dance floor and I camped out to watch them dance. It was actually fun to watch the variety of people that were there. Tommy was a really good dancer. I remember going to use the restroom and when I came out Mindi told me that Tommy was looking for me because he wanted to dance a slow song with me. I was so nervous. It was like Jr. High all over again. The cute boy likes me. I anxiously waited for the next song and finally it came on. For the life of me I can't remember what it was. At the time I kept thinking to myself I need to remember this song. I really didn't want the dance to be over. For me it was an instant attraction. I don't know if I would say "love at first sight" but it was something. Like I mentioned before he was so different than any guy before. He was just like my dad and brothers. He liked hunting, fishing, and all the other "redneck" country boy things.


We had a really good time that night. Tommy actually ended up coming back with us and we all stayed at my parents house. The next morning my mom questioned who the strange guy was. I explained that it was Mindi's friend that she had talked about before. It is kind of weird now looking back on that. She was all worried that we picked up some random person at the "bar". Ha. Now he fits in with my family sometimes better than I do!


The next few months I spent a lot of time driving down to see him. I was fresh out of Graduate school and looking for a job. That October I started the job I'm at now. The following April I bought our house and in June we were engaged. It really didn't take us long to figure out that we were meant for one another. Planning our wedding was so much fun. Tommy actually helped with a lot of the details. I made did all the decorations, the flowers and jewelry. I loved every minute of it. My mom says every now and then that it was so much fun that I ought to do it all over again. I told her maybe for our 20th we can have a vow renewal or something.


I'm thankful to have a husband who loves me and loves my family. It is a blessing that he gets along with my father so well. I have never been that close with my dad so it is good that my husband is. The rest of my family loves him just as much as I do. He and my mom gang up on me all the time. I never really believed the statement that girls end up marrying someone like their fathers, but in my case I guess that is somewhat the truth!

5/10/08

family time

The busyness of life has taken me in this last week. It has been good for me to stay busy and not just sit and think. I have spent some time with my great Uncle and with friends. Work is crazy busy (hello huge stacks of charts on my desk) and I'm enjoying it for some strange reason. I was touched this week by 3 very different clients I went to see. That is really a whole other post that I do not have time for now.


Today my family is heading to the St. Louis Zoo to spend some time together for Mother's day. I'll be honest, this has been a difficult week/weekend for me to think about. I long to be a mom that can hold her child and celebrate the joy that it is to share that mother/child bond. I keep telling myself that I am a mom. I love the baby that I lost more than I can even put into words and that is why it hurts so much. Today I get to spend the day with my niece Clara. It is always bittersweet for me. I enjoy being with her but can't help to feel the tinge of jealously for the relationship that she shares with her mommy, sorry Mindi. I love you both and am so blessed to have you in my life. Enough of this sappy stuff, I need to get ready!!